The revelation is too… It’s too strong. It’s too… It’s completely without anything attached to it, completely just right there, like a crystal ball. There’s no cover, no stain, no blemish, nothing at all. […] I’m surprised that I can come back, eat stuff and talk to you, and read books. So somehow I managed; I learned to manage to balance the situation. So, it is possible after all. I never thought it was possible. During all my reincarnations on other physical planets, it had not happened. It’s the first time.
My God, sometimes you are blindfolded, you know that? So, believe me, if you think you are human, and you’re ignorant and all that, you are blindfolded, also. One day, it will hit you. Maybe not the way it hit me, but it will hit you in the way that it hit me before that. You know what I mean? We started somewhere. We started riding a bicycle, we skinned our knees and our elbows, but then suddenly you just ride it. And it goes smoothly from then on. You just balance it, and it’s done, at that point. Then you will know that you definitely are not human and not ignorant, and not the way you think you are. At that time, your ego will drop, drop dead, sayonara (goodbye), and then you will really know your Real Self, at least a great part of your Real Self. Wow, why are we going so far, ahead of our time? At that time, truly, I couldn’t care less what I wear or not wear. Everything just dropped, everything’s just gone. And now I’m back here again wearing green, throwing some makeup on. Yeah, it’s OK. Why not?
It’s just… at that point, I thought I’m done – no one would ever know where I live anymore, or what I am anymore. That’s the feeling of it, that I’d be gone forever, gone into obscurity – not necessarily to the spiritual world, but gone out of sight. That is the only thing I could think of. But how come I came back, I don’t know, also. (Maybe we dragged You.) Yeah, yeah. But you did not succeed, actually. I mean, you dragged me physically back to you, but I haven’t gone down at all. I might have gone down maybe one level or two, back and forth, but I haven’t gone back completely like before. I haven’t gone back to the Fifth (Level), for example. No. But it’s nice like that, because I was thinking, “That’s it, I have to go.” It was impossible at that time to think of coming back to see you or talk nonsense. But then, I can manage it. It’s a miracle, really! Like a resurrection. OK, let’s go back to this book.
(So, we are even more lucky.) You are lucky? (Yes.) I don’t know. OK, just enjoy it. Yeah, still, I feel very far from you, but now and again, I glimpse a little bit back, as before. With a telescope, perhaps. So that I can feel what you feel, otherwise, I will not feel anything, and it’s not good for you, is it? But you know, I’m still surprised. I’m still surprised. Because at that point, you don’t have any… You’re just gone beyond all emotion. You do not understand humans or animal-people or anything. And I’m very surprised that I still can come back, the feeling can come back. I thought, “That’s it, everything’s gone!” Yeah! Just leaves you! Everything leaves you completely! You just stand there completely “nude,” if you will. You know, naked. You don’t have anything at all! And you just feel shy; you just want to cover yourself, that’s it.
Because the revelation is too strong. Is too… It’s completely without anything attached to it, completely just right there, like a crystal ball. There’s no cover, no stain, no blemish, nothing at all. And it was too powerful. And afterward, I survived, but I thought… I became so shy. So shy. I’m surprised that I can come back, eat stuff and talk to you, and read books. So somehow I managed; I learned to manage to balance the situation. So, it is possible after all. I never thought it was possible. During all my reincarnations on other physical planets, it had not happened. It’s the first time. Maybe I haven’t chosen to.
Yes? (In Malaga, we saw You, and I just had the feeling You are almost all gone, just like empty clothes there, or maybe one percent is clinging only there.) Yeah? (It’s just like that, and everything is “up.”) Really? Yeah, perhaps it’s like that. I feel almost like that every day. But surprise, all the dog-people and the pets, they keep me down here. They keep me in reality check. It’s OK, too. Maybe because of them that I have to be connected still. And it’s good that way. Alright.
I told you, even though I’m not that shy anymore, but I couldn’t go and tell everybody like that. It’s not as shy as before, but still, it’s not the thing to tell people. I’m still talking around it. I even don’t go to the point. I can’t with you, even! You understand what I’m saying? (Yes, Master.) Do you see I say anything? I’m just talking around it. Cutting around the edge only, no? I can’t even get it out there. I still cannot get to that point to tell you bluntly what is what. I can’t do it. I don’t know why. Don’t ask me – I ask myself! It’s just talk around, beating around the bush. Just like a man who wants to propose but says, “Oh, you are the sunshine of my life. You are the roses in my garden.” And all that. But the one point, he doesn’t say it. Proposing or weather forecast. Remember that? You OK, love? (Yes.) What’s wrong? Crying. Why are you crying? Look, I even painted my fingernails yesterday. Cool?
Where were we? So, that was about the prophets who foretold some events, and then they always happened, so the people respected them because of that. But we don’t do that, also. We don’t tell often such things. Even among us. Maybe they could do that. It’s just to some small group, or a few people, and then that few people spread out, maybe. I don’t think these prophets, so-called prophets, also go out in the street and say, “Look here, tomorrow it’s going to rain.” Something like that. That belongs to the BBC weather forecast company. Let them earn some living, no? Let them do their job, good job. Their good job that they’re doing. Why the prophets had to do that? But I guess in the old times they didn't have TV. So it’s also good to warn people out of danger. And maybe that’s why they had to do it.
OK, now we continue lower down: “The Essenes considered that everybody who does not marry, hereby contracts the propagation and destination of man…” humankind, womankind, “as men would soon cease to exist otherwise.” If man doesn’t exist, and woman exists, OK too, no? They say if we don’t propagate, like we don’t marry and have children, then men cease to exist. It only talks about men, so we women, we don’t care. Men! They mean if everybody doesn’t marry, then we have no more world, no more humankind. I don’t know if that’s important or not. Is it important? (No.) Maybe. Yeah? In that sense, perhaps. You have to know that the Order of the Essenes probably have been like a lineage coming down through generations. Like the Buddhist tradition and all that.
It might not be at that time that had a lot of high level enlightened Masters. It might not be. But they still kept the virtues of it. Just like the Buddhists, they keep the Five Precepts. It doesn’t mean that they are very highly enlightened. Or the people who are vegetarian because they belong to some vegetarian club or something, or lineage or some teaching, but that does not necessarily mean that they have studied with a very enlightened Master, or they might not have produced all that enlightened Master. There might be some, but it doesn’t always mean. So, they might interpret something according to their understanding of their spiritual level at that time. So hence, perhaps that’s why they say everybody who doesn’t marry will not propagate for the population of the world, which is not good – that’s what they mean. I don’t mind. I told you, I don’t mind – you marry and make children a lot, it doesn’t matter to me. Just meditate.
“But ere [before] they married, they put the one they had chosen as their wife on a term of trial for three years.” Ooh… Uh-oh! Three years! After three years, he gets fed up, then he goes choose somebody else, or what? What a clever way! Because people say “three-year itch,” and “seven-year itch.” So, after three years, maybe you don’t want to stay with that partner anymore. But why… why is that? This is the thing I don’t agree, because it’s all about men here. Men choose a wife, and then trial for three years! Ah! Some people who did not get a very high enlightened level, and still had a little sound of sexist here. We cut that part out! No, never mind, we just keep it, doesn’t matter. People have to understand; you have to understand, the teachings sometimes have flaws. That’s the problem.
“After this three-fold trial and cleansing, if the woman was found to be chaste and faithful and capable of bearing children, they marry her.” Wow! (Oh!) Like a business. Uh-oh, uh-oh. So, I think we don’t want to belong to this. This policy only, we don’t like. “They never had sexual intercourse with their wife in her pregnancy.” Well, that’s OK. “Thereby, to show they had not married from lust but to fulfill the command of Jehovah, ‘Be fruitful, increase, and fill the Earth.’” Well, we have to ask Jehovah about that. It’s OK. The idea of marriage for spiritual partnership is OK. Not for lust. That’s OK, that’s laudable. But to think of a woman as like a bearing-children object, that I don’t agree with. They had forgotten the woman’s soul, which is equal to man’s. Maybe they haven’t elaborated very well. Maybe it’s just one of the traditions in the country, and they incorporated it into this way of life. I hope so.
“When the women bathe or wash themselves, they are clothed in a linen garb.” Meaning not completely naked in the river. They didn't have bathrooms before. So they just bathed themselves in the lake or river, so, of course, they had to clothe themselves in a kind of garb. So you can wash yourself inside, but nobody sees you. It’s like a mobile bath house. That’s very cool. We can do it here! We can wear a plastic garb and then go outside in the rain. Yeah, the water will run inside, and you clean inside, like a tent, you know? Like a personal bathing tent. Now: “The men, similarly, when they bathe, wear an apron or belt around the waist.” That’s OK. It’s no big deal. “In whatever they do, they exercise great order and chastity.” That’s supposed to be for dignity, to protect your dignity as well as somebody else who’s watching, if anybody is watching. They should not anyway. But probably because they bathed together in the same lake or something, or the same bath house, so they had to exercise that, and it’s OK. “So, rightly do they deserve to be called an example for the life of other people.” That’s correct.
