So, it’s very difficult for me to hide. I cannot hide the aura, no matter what I say. So sometimes I say very normal things, because when I go out, I just play silly like everybody else. But some people just look at me, smiling, and say, “You are different!” I say, “How? You like my clothes?” “You’re special! You know You’re special!” For example. Then I just have to stop playing silly, because if they know you already, you don’t play anymore. But whenever I’m out, I always play as normal as I can.
(Master, before I left, they [the dog-people] were very sad. So I spoke to them, and I said to them, “Don’t be sad. Mommy’s going to see Master, see.” And then they calmed down, then they weren’t so sad anymore, because I feel my dog[-people] really understand when I talk to them.) Yes. They understand. You have to tell them what happens. Any time something changes or you’re going somewhere, just tell them. They understand. It’s better. Just like your friend or your children – if you just left without telling, then they also feel… wondering what’s happening. Tell the dog-people. It’s easier to tell the dog-people than to tell your boyfriend, I’m telling you. Right? (Yes.)
So, you still have a boyfriend or a new one or something? (I don’t have a boyfriend, Master.) You don’t? (No.) All this time? How can it be? (I don’t know, Master, the guys don’t like me.) Fed up, huh? (No, it’s just that after a week or two weeks, it doesn’t work out.) Yeah. But you can’t just pick any guy! That’s why. (No, I’m quite fussy, Master. But I mean…) No, what I mean, it’s not about appearance or about personality. You will be wrong if you pick just a handsome guy or a sweet guy. (Yes.) It will be always not right. It has to be something from inside. Because if you have criteria like, “OK, I like this type.” You know like I say, “my type” or “not my type,” then it’s always the wrong guy. (Yes.) It has to have some feeling inside, it must be real love. Because if you keep changing guys all the time, that means you haven’t found true love. (No.) You’re fed up, quickly. Just a date or [go to a] coffee shop or something, nothing else happens. (And it’s also very superficial, Master.) Yeah. That’s right. (Because the men, they don’t want to get to know you as a person.) No, but even if they want to get to know you, after you get to know them, (Yes.) you don’t want to see them anymore. It’s just so mundane. (Yes.) And then when you’re together – one boy, one girl – it just seems strange, kind of dragging you down a little bit.
(But it does get a bit lonely also, though, Master.) I know that. I know that. (I sometimes struggle.) Go to group meditation! (I do. But…) The (meditation) Center, they don’t open every day? (We can if we want to. We’re allowed to go.) OK, then just go there! Maybe some lonely soul also sits there and then… (No, Master.) And then both of you are not lonely anymore. (There’s no lonely souls at our Center.) No? (No, most of the brothers are married.) Only you? You’re the only one lonely? (Yes.) I feel so sorry for you. (And they’re not my type.) You have two dog(-people), what else do you want? And a housekeeper (And a cat[-person].) who prays to the tree even. Life’s so interesting. (No, Master, You make my life interesting.) Yeah, I know but… (Really, it’s true.) OK, if you want to find a boyfriend… (The path and our practice. But I would like a boyfriend if it’s possible.)
You’re OK now? You’re good, financially now OK, right? (I’m much better. Thank You, Master.) But I have to tell you, you were a very good driver. (Thank You, Master.) Very sweet and good. I wish I had one like that all the time. But you can’t stay long. You have to jump with me around, and your passport’s very difficult. (My passport’s actually OK. It’s just that I have so much responsibility in South Africa.) Yeah, with two dog-people and one housekeeper, that’s really something. (And remember Annabella, too, Master, she’s my cat[-person].) Yeah? (Yes.) Then you have a houseful. (She’s very cute.) Houseful, and then you say you’re lonely. Rubbish, you talk garbage. Who else wants to tell me some rubbish stuff? You’re not talking garbage, I’m just joking. Don’t take it personally. But it is personal. No, I’m just joking. You’re OK, you’re OK. Really. What is this now? It’s new stuff here. Something in my throat, all day.
Tell me, who else? (Could I ask You some more spiritual questions?) Sure, sure, anybody asks, I’m here for that. (It’s because it’s the first time that I’ve met You, so I’m not…) Your first time?! I thought I know you for a million years. Come on, love, ask me. (In a sense, when You first walked in, I felt a bit ashamed in a sense, because I thought You looked so normal. Just like, I mean, just a normal person.) Yeah, I understand, understand. (But then it’s like for me…) You’re supposed to have a big aura and all that, flashing into your eyes. (No, no, this is what I was going to say. But then it’s like I have a switch, like a switch, and then I saw. I can see the aura.) You did? (Yes. And it’s like You’re a painting – the angels and the crown.) In the aura. (Yes. And I don’t know how to explain this. Sometimes when I “switch on” – I don’t know how to explain it in another way.) I understand. You tune in, tune in. It’s automatic. (It’s just blinding. I just feel like I can’t even look at You. I just feel You’re so bright.) Yeah? (It’s just blinding.) I’m sorry; I cover myself.
(And I just thought that’s how I felt that I know You maybe, because I’ve been practicing for a couple of years and that’s how I know You from the inside. So, yes.) It’s good. You’re crying now, have a (vegan) candy. (And also sometimes, I don’t know if it’s just me, but when I go to group meditation at the Brighton Center, it’s like I can… I see You sitting in lotus position right at the front of the room, and I know You’re always there with us.) Yes. (At every group meditation, You’re right there at the front. There’s a painting, but I know it’s not just the painting.) It’s not. (I can see You there as well.) You see the manifestation body. (And I just want to say thank You that You’re always there.) And you still doubted me that I look so normal? With all that experience, still doesn’t assure you? I tell you, human’s mind. (That was my first impression, so, that’s why.) Human’s mind, human’s mind. Yeah, yeah. (So, thank You.)
I got that all the time, honey. You’re not the only one. I’m glad that I look normal. I could not even hide my aura sometimes to be safe. You don’t know that. I don’t want this aura! It’s just there, what can I do? I don’t even want it. I want to look more normal than what you think I am normal, so that I can blend in and that I’m safe. I mean, safe to do my work. But sometimes I’m just exposed because of this aura stuff. Because some people, they don’t even practice meditation, but they still can see auras.
I told you one of the stories in the hotel. (Yes, in the hotel.) The guy, he just kneeled in front of me, in front of all the guests in the reception in the hotel, in Monaco. He’s still there. He said he saw my aura so bright. I said, “But don’t you see that from some other people?” I’m just trying to make it like nothing, it’s nothing at all. And he said, “No. I see only once in many thousands maybe. And not so bright like this.” And he was a tough guy. He shaved all his head, he looked like a president’s bodyguard. He was so tall and he hardly smiled ever, he looked so tough. I was kind of scared of him a little bit when I first came. I thought he was a bodyguard or the security guard in disguise or something. But when he was with me, he talked so soft because of the aura. And then of course, it spread to many other people, because he did this kind of thing in front of everybody. People asked him also, so that I could not even stay in that hotel, for long. Even then, people see it, but they don’t really care. They’d rather see (Lord) Jesus or Mary in the picture with a round halo painted around Them, than see the real person who has it. They would believe the picture who has it, but won’t believe the real person who has it. And some police, they also have this ability, and some outside people also.
So, it’s very difficult for me to hide. I cannot hide the aura, no matter what I say. So sometimes I say very normal things, because when I go out, I just play silly like everybody else. But some people just look at me, smiling, and say, “You are different!” I say, “How? You like my clothes?” “You’re special! You know You’re special!” For example. Then I just have to stop playing silly, because if they know you already, you don’t play anymore. But whenever I’m out, I always play as normal as I can. I wear normal clothes, normal jeans, even now, and everything I do. So, trying to fool people, to leave me in peace like everyone else. But sometimes I can’t. Sometimes I can’t. Just like you, they “tune in,” they “switch,” and then they can see it. Sometimes they don’t switch because sometimes it just hits them. They see it, without them doing anything. Some people have this ability, because in the past life, they have practiced in this direction. Just like you in the past life, you also practiced meditation. That’s why your faith is strong, even though you think I’m too normal for you. What else can I do? Grow some horns or something? I’m too normal, with makeup and all that stuff. Lipstick.
(Can I mention one other thing?) You like some (tissues)…? (I’m OK.) Yes. (Thank You. When I was practicing the Convenient Method, waiting to get initiated, so this was in 2009, I saw, I think it was on a brother’s YouTube channel, he recommended watching a particular video of You, and it’s when You were in, I think, in Israel, and You had curly hair in a way…) Yes. (And I could see You looking up and You could see Heaven and the angels, and it looked like You were back home. And You reminded me a lot of [Lord] Jesus.) Yes, at that time I felt... I felt I am Jesus. (Yes, and I could see that, but I just thought there was a… And it wasn’t until the Hungary tapes that I watched that it confirmed that.) Confirmed what? Confirmed “you know.” (Yes.) I don’t know! (Well that, to me, that You were [Lord] Jesus. I could see.) Oh, yeah? (It just looked like You were back home.) Yes, yes. I felt very much that I was home.
(And even Your hair, the way You looked and the way You were dressed, it was almost like a hologram of that time) Yeah, yeah. (showing through.) At that time, I really felt at home. Felt it. Felt that I was home again. But that’s just the inside. Outside, looked the same. My hair was just curly, by the way, at that time. At that time, I had curly hair. But I did feel that I was home and I did feel that I was Jesus. But maybe many people felt like that when they went there? But it’s different, of course. It was a very nice feeling. It was very nice, so assuring and so blissful. It’s a pity that such a holy land, that awakened people into the spiritual feeling, should be always in trouble like that. It pains me so much. Thank you for sharing with all of us, all these things. Very nice. (Thank You, Master.) You are new, but you’re an old soul. Pretty old and pretty, you are pretty… old like me.
Any more? (Actually, there is something else that... It happened a couple of years before I got initiated.) Yeah. (And I remembered it when I was at my initiation, and there were these two dreams that I had.) Two dreams. (And they had a particular quality to them that I knew they were different.) Yes. (And what I’m not clear on is if it’s a past incarnation somewhere else or if it’s like a parallel, another life. Sometimes it feels like I’m not just here, like… I don’t know if I’m remembering from a past time, or if it’s another part of me somewhere else.) Understand. (Should I describe it, one of the dreams, or...?) Yeah, yeah. If you want to.
(Well, one of the dreams was, it’s… I’m not in a physical body like this one. And it’s an impression, it’s like in outer space somewhere, and I’m not standing on anything. It was like I’m with people, with like a row of other beings, and what we’re there for is we’re… it’s like our weapon is the Light to fight the oncoming darkness. But it’s just like being in outer space, and it was just more of an impression, more than pictures.) Understand. (So that’s what I wasn’t clear on. Is this from before, or is this something going on somewhere else?) That’s something before. (OK.) Past life. You just re-experienced it to clean up some karma. (OK.) Sometimes, in a dream, you can work out the karma, so that the fixed karma in present time is not too unbearable, so that you can evolve more, fast, more quickly in a spiritual process. It’s good. People do that all the time, the practitioners. They dream, and they have visions to work out many different karmas. Otherwise, in one lifetime, it’s very difficult to clean it all out. Except, a Master maybe scolds you or beats you up or something. Beats you up! A whip. Then He (She) cleans you fast, but nobody likes that. Nobody, and me neither. I also don’t like that method, but that’s the fastest way, apart from cleaning it yourself in a dream or something. It’s more difficult.
OK, anything else? No, huh? [Are] you staying till tomorrow? All of you? (Saturday. Until 24th.) Saturday. OK. Then we’ll see you again tomorrow. Well, I hope. I mean, unless something last minute happens, otherwise, I’ll come see you every day. Not all day, all night, of course. I wish I could but, never mind. I stay as much as I can. And I’ll come see you every day If I can. And now, if you don’t have any more earth-shaking stories or questions… Any more questions? [You] can ask tomorrow again, or tell me now? If not, [then] we meditate together. Alright? (Ça va. (Alright.) We’re happy, Master. Any special requests, you want some (vegan) cakes or something before you settle in? Or later? Now? (Yes.) After. If you get too excited, you can’t meditate. All this sugar stuff, and all the happiness. I will bless it, and then you take it after your meditation. Now you should calm down, no calories, no sugar surge. I’ll see you inside. Yeah – Knock, knock. “Who’s there?” It’s your Big Sis…
